Today is one of the days that i feel like i am running against time with one hundred and one thing to compete yet didn't manage to
Of all days to have intensive and important meetings, it have to happen on the same days on school start. thank god for dad whom drove me
skipped lunch because i had very late breakfast and simply bad canteen food too. but realize means i go hungry till 1030 since i have school. FML
Past few days my colleagues complain the office is too cold and ask me to complain to the management. Today they find it stuffy and warm and ask me to complain again. FML
i was out of meeting at 6, tie-ing last min knots for tomorrow product briefing at 9am yet unable to complete all my task and realize i forgot to change my boss hotel trip she requested since afternoon after I shut down my laptop. FML
Doesnt help when my father was waiting 15 Min patiently for me and thats the grace period of our parking system. my father have to pay for that extra 3 mins when i hopped on at the 28th min. FML
In a hurry since i am late for school, the car just infront of us is stuck at the gantry because his cashcard run out of money. he had to run to security and use nets to top up - FML
my phone just choose to hang on me 10 millon times, using 30 min to open the menu and 1 hour to type an sms when communication and interactions are specially heavy this week - FML
I turned up in class late, missing the tips shared by lecturer - FML
my guy friend whom seldom calls and ask for help, sms me asking for a listening ear when the lecturer is highlight the imporant pages to study for exam in class - FML
I was out of class for 5 min on phone and over heard one of my classmate, whom is out too, on the phone - sobbing silently and i overheard that someone pass away - FHL ( fuck her life)
I return to class, took a pack of tissue, went out again, pat her back and says " i hope everything is allright" and passed her the tissue before i go back in, thinking she might want some silent moments. alter i wonder if i was too heartless not even asking what happen? or would that be to nosy? and end up missing 4 more pages of what the lecuterer was teaching - FML
just called my guy friend after settling and its 1am now, i have to wake up 7.30 tomorrow. FML
WHAT A FML DAY
Labels: fml, what a day
I realize my habit of apologizing for anything or everything first during my first job.
this is because i know and seen too many arrogant asshole whom live in their own world, blaming everyone but themselves for everything. I made a strong mental note ever since to first point the three fingers at myself and evaluate what wrong i have done before blaming others.
i realize this when my opening line during cold calling is always
"sorry, i would like to Mr ABC.. is he available now?"
and once Michele actually point it out to me after she was seated next to me, within 2 days.
now at work, for being the youngest and most inexperience in one of the world biggest MNC, Harry Potter Co. i find myself confidence at my lowest point and often having to apologize over every things.
things i don't know
things i never experience
things that it wasn't even my responsibility.
There are stuff which i screws up and there are stuff where others screw up. but at the grey line when its unclear, it will be directed to me.
so now people are kind of getting use that i am the one screwing up even when i am not. It's my fault for positioning myself and now i learn, i will stop it.
I will curb saying sorry unless it's serious and really my wrong 100%.
will decrease the need for me to say it.
i fight for myself and emerge stronger instead of weaker.
Labels: A Dollar For My Thoughts, work ranting
weekend screwed
heard things about me this week
that is slowly killing me.
if all i had done is wrong,
and i cant figure what is right
and non if the things i did was for my good
then its time to stop doing ANY of it
Labels: anger venting, in need of pain killer
Decision by Monday
in the meanwhile evaluation taking place.
I know what i want
but i cant get what i want
and now everything else also changes
changes sucks
and i am dealing with it
Labels: decisions making
Onset insomnia - difficulty falling asleep at the beginning of the night, often associated with
anxiety disorders.
pillow wet
Labels: minus day
"Waiting is painful.
Forgetting is painful.
But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering."
- Paulo Coehlo, Brazilian author of The Alchemist et al
Labels: in need of pain killer, quote of the day
It's getting painful.
The choices, the words, the action, the tears, the numbness,. the daze, the misunderstanding, the frustration, the humiliation.
life not fair, but why does it have to intensify my pain
Labels: work ranting
